Real friends...

Its funny how you can be friends with someone for so long! and they do nothing but hurt you... I mean if your working at a job and we have worked together for 4 years and you get transfered to another store then get fired and you LIE to me about WHY you got fired then im at my store saying how unfair it is of them to fire you when you did nothing wrong they were just discriminating against you because of health problems or something and the manager has to pull me aside and tell me that you were fired for STEALING! that hurts my feelings so bad! and you never ever ever say anything to disprove that! gosh... i today mourn a friendship with someone who i thought was not only a friend to me but also a family member! and someone who i could talk to. but i guess you know something is fishy about it when they dont even come to your wedding. you know.

And then when you try to be a good friend and be there for them through the death of their child and be there for them when all hell breaks loose in their family and they are crying and have no one else on their side you find out they are talking crap about you behind your back and hell i never said one ugly thing about you to anyone even after i find out all the bad stuff you say about me or lied to me about! because i said thats not important! i dont need to stoop to your level! Now i find out you and my old co workers are bash talking me behind my back but you guys still have the nerve to call me and ask how im doing how my baby is! how dare you act like you care about my child! or me! its not so much that i care to the point of its going to make me depressed and sad but it really hurts my feelings that ppl are that shallow! im a good friend and people always end up taking advantage of me! i would drive a hour out of my way to take someone home who i knew needed it and the next day they would be talking shit about me!

Just please if you are a friend be a friend. and dont make your co workers you real friends you need to be friends with people that you dont see everyday! because as soon as you get mad at each other your going to start talking shit to about each other to everyone else then when it comes back to that person feelings get hurt! i know i havent always been the best kind of friend to people but i always ended the friendship before it got to the point of just down right hurting your feelings because i was mad at you. so if your my "friend" and you think so little of me as to talk crap about me behind my back or about my baby or anything in my life when i have worked SO HARD to be where i am today please just forget me! just forget that im here just delete me from your life. because im tired of part time friends! im tired of people being my friend to benefit them! tired of ppl wanting free services out of me! tired of ppl wanting me to help them but never giving any help! so for all the people who know that they are sucky friends this one is for you guys out there in cyber world!!!

What does labor feel like?

Well today i have felt all kinds of sick! i felt like i had heartburn. i felt like i was gonna spew and then my stomach has been upset. Anyone who tells u pregnancy is a beautiful thing and u glow the whole time forgets to include the fact that u swell, gain a whole lot of weight, your shoe size goes up about 2 sizes on average, u get bladder and urinary tract infections, you get yeast infections, your nose spreads and gets bigger!, you eventually feel like a giant obese person in bed and cant roll over, you get hemroids (if they say they dont they r just prissy!), you get stretch marks in odd places that you thought would never spread like ur boobies! especially if you have small breasts or they are just not very round before hand.

other than that i love my baby and i am so glad to be having her and i will deff have another baby and go through this again but i just wanted to let any body who reads this know pregnancy is real rough and ugly! haha

but this whole labor thing is slow! ive been sitting on 1, 1.5cms for like a month! ugh then i go in on tuesday and i was still at that. then i go in today because i feel bad ta-da! im 3.5 cms dilated whoop! so she decides shes going to help my labor process and strip my membranes! let me tell u it doesnt hurt hurt but i sure wouldnt want someone to do it all the time! I had tears come out of my eyes i think she had her fingers so far in my cervix she could touch my babys nose! since then ive been having a whole lot of contractions and it feels like her heads trying to bust out of my vagina! just to put it bluntly. haha.

Please learn to drive...

Dont you hate when your driving down the road, following all the proper procedures and wham! Someone side swipes you! Well that happened to me today. A speed friendly college student who was driving his girlfriends old suv killed my new little car:( its mostly cosmetic to the side of the car but its the point of the matter! If you are turning right on red please make sure that someone isnt in the lane first! i mean he practically t-boned me! the little ass hole! he got out of his car just crying because he hit a pregnant lady! well duh! you better be lucky that you didnt deploy my air bags!!! Then i call work and they were like well are you still coming in? uhhhhh NO im going to the hospital! i am 9 mths pregnant and just got into a car wreck! i got to the hospital and they were like ugh no if your pregnant and you get into a wreck you better come in. since the accident ive been having contractions every 20 mins and ive been feeling pushing pressure in my vagina area. i know that was a little tmi but there just isnt any other way to say it! haha. but they went ahead and sent me home they said honestly at 38 wks pregnant those were normal things to feel anyways and that if they get 10 mins apart to come back and that i could be in labor labor! And there is a full moon coming up so hopefully things will work out!

my baby child is on her way!!!

I can not wait to post pictures and see what she looks like myself!!! all i know is that im tired of working! and im tired of working with slackers and people work slow so that they dont have to do as much!

about 4 weeks to go!

Baby Allison is on her way! and im excited. ive been noticing way more contractions especially when i walk or stand a lot! so im taking that as a good sign. hopefully she will be here by the first week of october! because im tired. i never knew that being pregnant made so many things happen at once. and whoever said that pregnancy is always awesome and nice lied! haha i never got sick but i have had everything else. gestational diabetes, preeclampsia, nerve problems, puppps! and everthing else! if u can get it i have gotten it and a bladder infection! and idk how i got that. but i do love my little pookie and i cant wait to meet her. would i do it again. yes i would! atleast one more time but im not one of those crazy women who are convinced they are building gods army or they want like 6 or 7 kids sorry but yall are retarded! haha. i think the biggest complaint i have is my friggin crotch hurts all the time! if anyone has any suggestions on how to fix that or what causes that please let a sista know! other than that im ready to have this little beautiful bundle! and  im hoping that with every bit of pressure my butt feels that its getting closer because my poor feets are so swollen i cant even bend me toes!

diapers diapers and more diapers! hooray!

I think im becoming obsessed with becoming a mommy! i just can not keep myself out of her nursery!!! yesterday i sat on the floor and arranged the boxes of diapers like 20 times. Then i bought a diaper stacker at good will thats white and has lace and everything on it and i put the diapers in there and took them out and put them back in and kept doing that forever lol. until it was perfect! And i went and bought a recliner yesterday and it rocks and swivels! Its a ugly brown swede color so i covered it with a nice crisp white sheet!!! and covered the top with a pink handmade quilt!!!

Work, being pregnant and such...

So i have been officially working at great clips for a month now. And honestly i really love my job. I might be almost 8 months pregnant but im still getting up every day and putting in my 9-5 or 11-7:) I dont mind working i never have. And everyone that i work with is very supportive. And i think that is why i like it, because no one is trying to make my life difficult lol. And besides the fact that i make pretty good tips and my pay check is a whole lot nicer than any other job ive ever had. Plus i sell pretty good amouts of product as well:) i could sell you a bag of poop if i tried lol.


Besides work i find my time for delivery coming ever closer! And im not ready! i wish i could go back to when i felt like cleaning and working on the house and do everything that now seems impossible to do!!! Because all day at work im READY! im on a roll and i could work 9-9 but as soon as i get in my car to go home its like all the tiredness of the day just comes over me all at once! And by time i get at home its all i can do to take a shower and wash all the hair off of me before i collapse lol. much less make dinner then clean my house...My poor house. thats another story. Im ashamed to invite anyone over! my poor kitchen is a all time stinky wreck! i couldnt find the smell in the kitchen i looked and looked and i cleaned and cleaned and it was the stinking bag of potatoes in the tater box! So now one half of my house smells like poop! So for the past hour i have been peeling good potatoes and chucking stinky ones. and i put the good ones in a freezer bag and they are in the freezer. because i cant eat potatoes right now:( Then i peeled two whole bags of soft apples that would have never been eaten! And now my house smells of cinnamon apples on the stove! yummmmy! 


But my nursery isnt finished!!! I am in a panic about my nursery! The walls are literally only half way painted. And everything is in the center of the room! Everyone has promised me that they would come help me paint it and then noone ever shows up! So it looks like im going to have a unfinished nursery! because im not even supposed to be painting....


And dont let me get started about little things like vacuuming. I guess its not a big deal that things dont get done but it still bothers me that i just cant get them done because im so tired... Oh well....

does everyone have to be a drunk?

Cant we all just get together and just enjoy each other company without everyone having to be a damn drunk? yes im pregnant, and yeah i never drank before i was pregnant even though i was over 21. but you know it seems like it used to be fun to just go have lunch, hang out watch a movie or something chill a little bit. but now days its not happening unless everyone is drinking. its a drinking party. well you know what your the ones who look stupid the next day when ever your all over not only your facebook but all your friends and all over the bar or club you was at and you have a black eye because you tripped up the stairs or something or a sprained ankle or a broken toe all i have to say is my toe isnt broken now is it nope! so if you cant be my friend because im not one of your new found drinking buddies and we cant be friends with out you expecting me to drink with you or im suddenly not as cool as you because all your friends are fucking drunks then maybe we shouldnt be friends anymore! i mean if you cant respect ppl then your the idiot! idiot! gosh ppl r just jack ass's

New things....Changes for the better

Blue! is todays color of choice haha. 


Well im sleepy. Yawning and very tired. And all Rex wants to do is play fetch... Im so sick and tired of fetch! And if you dont play with him all he does is bark and bark! Its honest to God driving me crazy lol. 


Well for the past year my hair has been driving me crazy. And i have honestly stopped dealing with it at all and just either throwing it in a pontail or on days i try to do something with it i throw it in a pony tail by the end of the day haha. So since i had the day off i decided to drive up to Great Clips in Randleman and pay a little visit to muh friend April! She done chopped off all my hair and i love it! it feels amazing and honestly it looks just like it looked when i first met her haha. So thank you bff i will gladly pay to get a hair cut. because my hair looked like major crap! Next time i drive up there hopefully it will be to take care of this half colored crap! 


In the past month i have quit my job at harris teeter and started working full time at Great Clips myself! i really like it. My blood pressure has went down and i feel a lot better! it could be partly because im not having to wear a hat everyday or horrible thick as hell polo shirts! but either way im happy that my life is finally taking a more positive route instead of the bumpy road less traveled haha. because honestly that road sucks!!!

Little Things Im Tired Of!!!

You know sometimes a girl just gets tired of bull shit! Like when one day you have someone riding up your ass worse than a string thong and then the next they are horrible, rude, mean and even the same way to your husband. You know i can take a so called friend acting like a douche to me but if your going to be ugly to my husband im pretty much going to slap your face son! because neither one of us can help it that your life sucks! That nothing is ever going right for you! Maybe your some of the issue? If everything you touch turns to gold then maybe you have a golden touch. but if everything in your life sucks maybe you just got issues!Then your lame ass is going to call me and say what are you doing? oh nothing that sucks so then all over facebook you invite all of your friends to go out and guess who doesnt get invited? the pregnant girl! Well hell aint i a friend too? You slut! yes i said slut because im mad and i can! I dont honestly understand y im friends with certain two faced people! they make me sick

First Blog in forever

Ive been really slack in my blogging. And for the most part that is because my laptop has a virus that ive just been to cheap to go get removed! LOL. So i am once again going to have a little baby! I have plenty of ultrasound pictures and he/she is so precious and cute!!!! I cant wait to find out what it is!!! And i want everyone to know that NC is COLD! again! like 45 degrees kinda cold. i cant deal with this lol. its getting a little out of hand here. God turn some heat on set it on 68 lol. So i have a new saying that i think everyone will enjoy. "I can see you so much better through the wholes in my back" its so powerful! its amazing how someone u think is ur friend can stab u in the back because they are reading to much into a facebook status and think that its about them! y would u think i was talking about u unless u was the one acting like that and talking about me behind my back and being a jealous bitch? well she deleted me from her facebook and blocked me and i told her i wasnt talking about her and that i didnt even know where she would get that from. Well by the end of the day shes sorry! boohoo its kinda hard to swollow with that big foot in ur mouth isnt it! so i was like i am going to b mad at her i am going to b hurt! ive never hurt her and her treating me like a traitor was not to be accepted! So i didnt call or message or even acknowledge her after her appology. and guess whos texting on my door! hello! i cant believe ppl! they make me so mad! Im sorry u cant ovulate and im sorry ur husband has jacked up soldiers but i have not ever once thrown that in her face! but if i was mean i would now. since ive been pregnant i have no filter and i really dont care what i say anymore LOL so if i was a mean person and i really did want to do that then i would! 

ICE DAY!!!!!

Blue is for bad weather! haha


Today i have been stuck in the house all day because over the last two days we have gotten ice, snow, ice, slush,  sleet, snow, rain, ice..... And the list goes on. School was cancelled today and they have already cancelled tomorrow as well! So i have severe cabin fever!!!! Arggghhhhh


Today my day has been eventful... not... I woke up at 8 to stevens phone ringing... Then he got up cause he couldnt sleep and then the cats got up and was moving around and then i couldnt sleep so i just got up too. Then the giant pile of dishes that i started yesterday was still there! so i finished them, then i put the ingredients for homemade chicken noodle soup in the crock pot turned it to high and made some soup! Then for breakfast i diced two redskin potatoes, half a onion, and added olive oil to a skillet and skilleted me some breakfast LOL after they was all brown and nice i added some scrambled eggs. Yummy it was amazing oh i forgot the biscuits. haha u know i dont always eat healthy! but idc! because im fat and happy and i likes it LOL. Then I ate and re washed all those dishes then i did some laundry, cleaned the kitchen. watched Willie Wanka and the Chocolate factory and Robin Hood men in tights. HAHA then i got up and dished the soup then i washed more dishes then i did more laundry. Then i ranted and raved about how my sister is not taking care of my dog in my absence then i took a 3 1/2 hr nap. then i knitted some then i made a bowl of cereal and here i am at 10 pm bored bored bored bored bored!!!


CABIN FEVER!!!!! Tomorrow i have to do something!!!

First Blog in forever!!!

So today was the first day back in cosmetology school.... Yes i finished back in ol' '09 but i got frustrated at some people and never took my test to go to state board. Well i took it but i didnt pass. And i dont feel like i was being taught properly so yeah. Now im at a different school with redneck pageant queens that have big hair and fake nails! That say HAY YALL!!!! and tease their hair so much that it looks way to big for their heads! haha i wanted to laugh but i couldnt they looked so weird. and they were kinda snooby but i stuck to myself today. I painted a girls nails and she thought i did the best job since revlon came out with multiple color polishes. Since i didnt have my kit because i bought i new one i watched the other girls and the teachers were praising their crappy up-dos and half assed marcels and i said self now i know why the other girl was impressed with my polishing skills. because basically noone has a whole lot o' talent! but im hoping that this was just because it was a fool around day LOL. Because i had to do way better then any of these girls put out today at my old school haha. And what topped the cake was when i walked into the class and sat down and one of the fat girls walked up to me and said uhmmm the beginners are in the other room... I said im not a beginner... and smiled and she sat back down. Then the teacher introduced me and said i had finished the program already i just had to make up 20 haircuts and everyone was like wahhhh????? huh???? yeah so then i was the shit everyone wanted to know my name and where i was from. yeah it was ok.... haha.

then in the theory part of the class the teacher had me write down what i needed to work on and what was my weak points in the theory area and i said everything. I needed help... haha cause obviously i never passed that at the other school but i did find out that his whos name shall not be mentioned, was teaching the class wrong and so now i hope that i can actually learn something! AMEN!

 Then when i got home and was opening my new kit and as i put everything into the new containers i bought i realized that my bag was to small... oh joy... So now i have two choices i can either put my perm rods in a zip lock bags and return the containers i bought or i can buy a bigger bag... the zip locks might win...

Then i came home finally and after a long day i knew i had been smelling something. It was the fridge... And my mother in laws mothers leftovers that have been growing different specimens of mold in about 40 diff butter containers. so then after i started dinner i dumped all the stinky moldy food and started washing dishes. OMG 45 mins later i stopped ate dinner and still have not finished those damn butter containers! but they stink!!! OMG steven said leave them for momma to wash...He just doesnt understand. I feel like the mold is going to grow and smother me in my sleep!

Then today every school in NC was closed except mine, and as i sit here at 10:15pm and there is freezing rain outside its still not closed but i have to say i may not b going if the roads are icy tomorrow!