Little Things Im Tired Of!!!

You know sometimes a girl just gets tired of bull shit! Like when one day you have someone riding up your ass worse than a string thong and then the next they are horrible, rude, mean and even the same way to your husband. You know i can take a so called friend acting like a douche to me but if your going to be ugly to my husband im pretty much going to slap your face son! because neither one of us can help it that your life sucks! That nothing is ever going right for you! Maybe your some of the issue? If everything you touch turns to gold then maybe you have a golden touch. but if everything in your life sucks maybe you just got issues!Then your lame ass is going to call me and say what are you doing? oh nothing that sucks so then all over facebook you invite all of your friends to go out and guess who doesnt get invited? the pregnant girl! Well hell aint i a friend too? You slut! yes i said slut because im mad and i can! I dont honestly understand y im friends with certain two faced people! they make me sick

First Blog in forever

Ive been really slack in my blogging. And for the most part that is because my laptop has a virus that ive just been to cheap to go get removed! LOL. So i am once again going to have a little baby! I have plenty of ultrasound pictures and he/she is so precious and cute!!!! I cant wait to find out what it is!!! And i want everyone to know that NC is COLD! again! like 45 degrees kinda cold. i cant deal with this lol. its getting a little out of hand here. God turn some heat on set it on 68 lol. So i have a new saying that i think everyone will enjoy. "I can see you so much better through the wholes in my back" its so powerful! its amazing how someone u think is ur friend can stab u in the back because they are reading to much into a facebook status and think that its about them! y would u think i was talking about u unless u was the one acting like that and talking about me behind my back and being a jealous bitch? well she deleted me from her facebook and blocked me and i told her i wasnt talking about her and that i didnt even know where she would get that from. Well by the end of the day shes sorry! boohoo its kinda hard to swollow with that big foot in ur mouth isnt it! so i was like i am going to b mad at her i am going to b hurt! ive never hurt her and her treating me like a traitor was not to be accepted! So i didnt call or message or even acknowledge her after her appology. and guess whos texting on my door! hello! i cant believe ppl! they make me so mad! Im sorry u cant ovulate and im sorry ur husband has jacked up soldiers but i have not ever once thrown that in her face! but if i was mean i would now. since ive been pregnant i have no filter and i really dont care what i say anymore LOL so if i was a mean person and i really did want to do that then i would! 

ICE DAY!!!!!

Blue is for bad weather! haha


Today i have been stuck in the house all day because over the last two days we have gotten ice, snow, ice, slush,  sleet, snow, rain, ice..... And the list goes on. School was cancelled today and they have already cancelled tomorrow as well! So i have severe cabin fever!!!! Arggghhhhh


Today my day has been eventful... not... I woke up at 8 to stevens phone ringing... Then he got up cause he couldnt sleep and then the cats got up and was moving around and then i couldnt sleep so i just got up too. Then the giant pile of dishes that i started yesterday was still there! so i finished them, then i put the ingredients for homemade chicken noodle soup in the crock pot turned it to high and made some soup! Then for breakfast i diced two redskin potatoes, half a onion, and added olive oil to a skillet and skilleted me some breakfast LOL after they was all brown and nice i added some scrambled eggs. Yummy it was amazing oh i forgot the biscuits. haha u know i dont always eat healthy! but idc! because im fat and happy and i likes it LOL. Then I ate and re washed all those dishes then i did some laundry, cleaned the kitchen. watched Willie Wanka and the Chocolate factory and Robin Hood men in tights. HAHA then i got up and dished the soup then i washed more dishes then i did more laundry. Then i ranted and raved about how my sister is not taking care of my dog in my absence then i took a 3 1/2 hr nap. then i knitted some then i made a bowl of cereal and here i am at 10 pm bored bored bored bored bored!!!


CABIN FEVER!!!!! Tomorrow i have to do something!!!

First Blog in forever!!!

So today was the first day back in cosmetology school.... Yes i finished back in ol' '09 but i got frustrated at some people and never took my test to go to state board. Well i took it but i didnt pass. And i dont feel like i was being taught properly so yeah. Now im at a different school with redneck pageant queens that have big hair and fake nails! That say HAY YALL!!!! and tease their hair so much that it looks way to big for their heads! haha i wanted to laugh but i couldnt they looked so weird. and they were kinda snooby but i stuck to myself today. I painted a girls nails and she thought i did the best job since revlon came out with multiple color polishes. Since i didnt have my kit because i bought i new one i watched the other girls and the teachers were praising their crappy up-dos and half assed marcels and i said self now i know why the other girl was impressed with my polishing skills. because basically noone has a whole lot o' talent! but im hoping that this was just because it was a fool around day LOL. Because i had to do way better then any of these girls put out today at my old school haha. And what topped the cake was when i walked into the class and sat down and one of the fat girls walked up to me and said uhmmm the beginners are in the other room... I said im not a beginner... and smiled and she sat back down. Then the teacher introduced me and said i had finished the program already i just had to make up 20 haircuts and everyone was like wahhhh????? huh???? yeah so then i was the shit everyone wanted to know my name and where i was from. yeah it was ok.... haha.

then in the theory part of the class the teacher had me write down what i needed to work on and what was my weak points in the theory area and i said everything. I needed help... haha cause obviously i never passed that at the other school but i did find out that his whos name shall not be mentioned, was teaching the class wrong and so now i hope that i can actually learn something! AMEN!

 Then when i got home and was opening my new kit and as i put everything into the new containers i bought i realized that my bag was to small... oh joy... So now i have two choices i can either put my perm rods in a zip lock bags and return the containers i bought or i can buy a bigger bag... the zip locks might win...

Then i came home finally and after a long day i knew i had been smelling something. It was the fridge... And my mother in laws mothers leftovers that have been growing different specimens of mold in about 40 diff butter containers. so then after i started dinner i dumped all the stinky moldy food and started washing dishes. OMG 45 mins later i stopped ate dinner and still have not finished those damn butter containers! but they stink!!! OMG steven said leave them for momma to wash...He just doesnt understand. I feel like the mold is going to grow and smother me in my sleep!

Then today every school in NC was closed except mine, and as i sit here at 10:15pm and there is freezing rain outside its still not closed but i have to say i may not b going if the roads are icy tomorrow!

Bless my heart!

So yes I have been a very bad girl and not blogged in a long time! But I have been very busy and had alot going on and alot on my mind...

So for starters, I am now hapily married to the man of my dreams! I love my Steven very much! And he makes me completely happy in every way. Honestly i wouldnt imagine him not being with me. We had a fabulous wedding on November 13th and it was everything I had ever hoped to have in a wedding. I cannot wait to get my pictures back so I can share them with my friends and family!

I found out one of my great friends has liver cancer. I have not known Anita as long as some of my other friends but she is still very dear to my heart! I am very sad for her because she has chosen not to recieve treatment for her cancer because she doesnt want to feel sick. but everything that I have read about liver cancer says with or without treatment it is very painful and still makes you very sick. I just think about her family and how she is the cement that holds everyone together. And if she dies with this cancer then so does really the relationship between alot of people. Pray for her. She is a really great person.

I am also trying to find me a new job! I hope to get a full time job somewhere like the hospital or something. I honestly dont think that I want to work at Harris Teeter much longer. They are taking away all full time positions and now noone is going to be promoted to full time. So basically it is useless for me to be there much longer! So I think it is time for me to move on.

I cant wait for Christmas! I love this time of year! If only it wasnt so dang cold! haha. I hate the cold! I like looking at it and I like walking through it every once in a while but I cant stand being COLD! all the time! haha. i would just prefer to be comfortable all the time instead.

Big Girls Dont Cry!

Well since i last posted alot has happened to me that i havent really felt like talking about until now. Sometimes deep wounds take a month or so to heal. Well for starts to catch any new visitors up. Once i was pregnant. And for any of you who know me that was the highlight of my boring existance, then i had a miscarriage. I mainly blame it on stress, anxiety, and a bunch of other things but my doctor rounded it all out to my hormones not rising properly. Which happens to about 80% of pregnancies but since you end up getting your period soon most women never know that they have had a chemical/spontanious abortion. But the doctors with all their smarts and mighty wisdom seem to think that i would have been around 4 months but it had started to slow in development and then just stopped all together so in all honesty it was probably about 2 months or so along.

After my lose i feel into this deep dark depression that not many people know that i went through. Not even Steven. I hated everything about babies. If i saw one i hated it. It wasnt mine. It was satans spawn for all i cared. And i hated all pregnant women. All of my friends with new babies and the ones who were pregnant i hated them too! I wanted everyone else to have a miscarriage like me so that they knew how i felt because all the bull shit they kept spouting about it will be ok you can have another one was pissing me off! i wanted to scream shut up bitch your child is still alive. mine died. i hate you! basically i was about to go off the deep end and i kept all this in because when i talked about it people looked at me like i was about to go columbian on them. And i might would have if one more of my friends bubbled to me about their pregnancies and how damn cute their little pooper was! I didnt care! i wanted you to be mourning with me not telling me oh look what so and so did today or i felt him kick! shut up! Jesus! help me!

So i went to the doctor  and was like look. I need drugs i hate everything and everyone. And i cant stop crying on the inside. And i cant stop eating. haha. eating.... But she said it was all perfectly normal. I didnt need drugs, i wasnt about to kill someone and it would all go away in time. And now four weeks after the sudden death of my child those feelings are slowely going away. I dont care anymore. And i still feel like i cant talk about it as much as i want to to my friends because everyone acts like they dont care. I mean i know u dont know how to help me. But sometimes i feel like i need to get things off my chest and express myself to people. So if i come a texting please text me back! i mean sometimes it could be a important message coming next.

But enough with the sad talk. A while back i posted about stevens aunt getting married and her having a nice little ceremony with family in the yard and i said oh i want that! So i started planning! Well syk! haha. that isnt going to happen my wedding has turned into a full blown! princess dianna replay! I have a big dress, I have big flowers, i have brides maids with matching dresses, men in rented tuxedos the whole nine yards! plus its going to be at my church! in the evening, lights dimmed, candles everywhere, im going to have a lighted arch, unity candles, a grand piano player, someone singing, a five tired cake, a buffet line, flower throwing, garter toss, cans on the back of my car! its going to be amazing! and if your either not invited or you cant make it sucks for you. BUT i am registered at walmart.com! and i do accept cash and checks! So my wedding is Nov.13th 2010! And im now very excited about this! Its finally happening! im finally walking the isle! i cant wait. Its going to be so perfect! Im going to attatch a few of my bridal pics hehe

Boy? or Girl?

So its always that age old question... Are you having a boy or a girl... Well i feel like i know what my baby is! I feel like its a boy! idk y i feel like this but i do. its not that i dont want a daughter. me and steven would just rather have a boy first. but anyways if its a boy his name will be Clark Nathaniel Deyette. Isnt that so cute! well i might change haha! but if it doesnt look out for a lil Clark runnin around pretty soon! but i like girl names too! I like Brooklyn. Thats nice! but idk there are just so many baby girls n my family. and i want a boy

So i cant wait to see it! Its so exciting! i think im getting a ultrasound sometime this wk!!! I cant wait! i wanna c my baby! haha and i cant wait to find out exactly how far along i am!!! i wanna know so i can make plans and i cant wait til it grows enough to see its little face!!! well im excited but im sleepy and i have to go to work so i gotta go haha