OH LOOK IM BLOGGING!

so its been a while last time i was here i was on the verge of going crazy! but alas im sane! but i must say i am enjoying work. its pretty nice. there are a few dumb asses every where u go but u know this is a pretty awesome store. and im making pretty amazing money... thats always nice. i can pay all the bills support my family buy baby needs and etc on what i make alone. im pretty awesome. I am totally in love with my sweet baby child she is the best person in this world! she has made me a wonderful person. u know im pretty happy with the life choices ive made. i have a house, a husband, a baby, a car, a great paying job. oh and amazing dog! he is pretty awesome right now hes chewing on a deer antler! because thats how awesome he is. he likes his organics over fake nasty plastic or rawhide! he says no mom they are yucky! give me deer! so on another note i got allisons pictures made today! shes so pretty! be jealous! oh on a side note u know whats awesome about antler? he cant go through it so fast! that thing lasts foreva!

A lil ol update on muh lifes!

So as most ppl know when i went back to work after maturnity leave i was transfered to another salon! and honestly i hated it so bad! i have never in my life worked somewhere that everyone hates each other SO bad! one person isnt there oh lets talk smack! lets make up crap lets do both and then freak on them the next time they walk in... yeah since i have been there i have been so stressed i have had bronchitis a sinus infection and shingles! yeah its been serious. And as most ppl have heard my work is having a 5.99 hair cut sale coming up. well thats a big deal we will have about 2+ hr waits all day for ten days! So when ppl are walking around work talking smack about they are going to quit a wk before the sale and leave us hanging because they are mad at the world and hate their life i mean y do you have to make my life difficult! ugh i hate that salon so bad! its everyone not just one person! then one girl quit and came back and whats the first thing that happens they try to talk smack about me well she shut them down she said we were great friends and i was her best work friend and she had no issues with me and thats how it was going to stay. so they stopped trying to make my life difficult for a while then they started to change tactics now they are trying to make us hate each other. im like u know yall bastards have no life. your nothing but a bunch of drunk pot heads! who come to work fucked up and the managers appearantly like the shit and baggage u bring so they talk about how much they want to replace you but never fire your crummy ass! i mean appearantly i dont fit into their ring so they dont like me. cause when i first came there and they asked me about certain extra activites i was into and i said uhm i just had a baby i dont think getting high and partying all night with you and taking pills is part of my lifestyle you had issues with me. BUT the light has shown through! im finally being transfered again! im going to a greensboro store! YAY im so excited! ugh the ppl here hopefully wont hate me because i have a strong work ethic and i dont want to do drugs with them i mean WTFH! really that just pisses me off i walked into work today and they were like we cant make any money today cause ur here and you cut faster than us blah blah blah. well y is it taking you 25+ mins to do clippers on the sides and shears on top? i can keep n my guide lines and i sell products EVERYDAY and yes i do make more money than yall but u know what its cause u stand there and run ur mouth and dont cut! thats y ur slow! no one cares about ur issues they want to tell u about theirs! duh! and this guy today freaked the hell out he said he was never coming back if it took 40 mins to do a 3 on the sides and finger length on top! this chick is slow and old get your slow old ass a booth if u want to take that long! ppl dont want to hear about ur fat butts infertility problems or anything else! shut the fuck up and cut. i mean she got upset but uhm 40 mins really i did 3 cuts in the time it took u to do that plus sold a product and made tips off each person then a girl tried to keep my tip today. we had a combined ticket and she did the lady i did the man they left 5 dollars to split. i know that aint a lot but it adds up! i said uhm they only left 5 wheres my half. she said oh i thought they tipped u too.... i aint made no money all morning your ppl have been tippin mine havent! i said i dont care! i did half that ticket split it chick! she acted pissed but u aint takin my money bitch! and this store steals! you cant bring nothing in the store! they will go through your purse! steal out of your wallet go through the text messages on your phone you have to keep a password on your phone! thats some shit. then when you call them out on it or u tell the manager it all flys back in your face your the bad guy well next time i catch someone on my fucking phone im going to jersey shore their ass! and bitch slap em! bring it on! oh im so glad to be moving thank you dear general manager for moving me! because i was seriously looking for another job! i hate bitches...

Real friends...

Its funny how you can be friends with someone for so long! and they do nothing but hurt you... I mean if your working at a job and we have worked together for 4 years and you get transfered to another store then get fired and you LIE to me about WHY you got fired then im at my store saying how unfair it is of them to fire you when you did nothing wrong they were just discriminating against you because of health problems or something and the manager has to pull me aside and tell me that you were fired for STEALING! that hurts my feelings so bad! and you never ever ever say anything to disprove that! gosh... i today mourn a friendship with someone who i thought was not only a friend to me but also a family member! and someone who i could talk to. but i guess you know something is fishy about it when they dont even come to your wedding. you know.

And then when you try to be a good friend and be there for them through the death of their child and be there for them when all hell breaks loose in their family and they are crying and have no one else on their side you find out they are talking crap about you behind your back and hell i never said one ugly thing about you to anyone even after i find out all the bad stuff you say about me or lied to me about! because i said thats not important! i dont need to stoop to your level! Now i find out you and my old co workers are bash talking me behind my back but you guys still have the nerve to call me and ask how im doing how my baby is! how dare you act like you care about my child! or me! its not so much that i care to the point of its going to make me depressed and sad but it really hurts my feelings that ppl are that shallow! im a good friend and people always end up taking advantage of me! i would drive a hour out of my way to take someone home who i knew needed it and the next day they would be talking shit about me!

Just please if you are a friend be a friend. and dont make your co workers you real friends you need to be friends with people that you dont see everyday! because as soon as you get mad at each other your going to start talking shit to about each other to everyone else then when it comes back to that person feelings get hurt! i know i havent always been the best kind of friend to people but i always ended the friendship before it got to the point of just down right hurting your feelings because i was mad at you. so if your my "friend" and you think so little of me as to talk crap about me behind my back or about my baby or anything in my life when i have worked SO HARD to be where i am today please just forget me! just forget that im here just delete me from your life. because im tired of part time friends! im tired of people being my friend to benefit them! tired of ppl wanting free services out of me! tired of ppl wanting me to help them but never giving any help! so for all the people who know that they are sucky friends this one is for you guys out there in cyber world!!!

What does labor feel like?

Well today i have felt all kinds of sick! i felt like i had heartburn. i felt like i was gonna spew and then my stomach has been upset. Anyone who tells u pregnancy is a beautiful thing and u glow the whole time forgets to include the fact that u swell, gain a whole lot of weight, your shoe size goes up about 2 sizes on average, u get bladder and urinary tract infections, you get yeast infections, your nose spreads and gets bigger!, you eventually feel like a giant obese person in bed and cant roll over, you get hemroids (if they say they dont they r just prissy!), you get stretch marks in odd places that you thought would never spread like ur boobies! especially if you have small breasts or they are just not very round before hand.

other than that i love my baby and i am so glad to be having her and i will deff have another baby and go through this again but i just wanted to let any body who reads this know pregnancy is real rough and ugly! haha

but this whole labor thing is slow! ive been sitting on 1, 1.5cms for like a month! ugh then i go in on tuesday and i was still at that. then i go in today because i feel bad ta-da! im 3.5 cms dilated whoop! so she decides shes going to help my labor process and strip my membranes! let me tell u it doesnt hurt hurt but i sure wouldnt want someone to do it all the time! I had tears come out of my eyes i think she had her fingers so far in my cervix she could touch my babys nose! since then ive been having a whole lot of contractions and it feels like her heads trying to bust out of my vagina! just to put it bluntly. haha.

Please learn to drive...

Dont you hate when your driving down the road, following all the proper procedures and wham! Someone side swipes you! Well that happened to me today. A speed friendly college student who was driving his girlfriends old suv killed my new little car:( its mostly cosmetic to the side of the car but its the point of the matter! If you are turning right on red please make sure that someone isnt in the lane first! i mean he practically t-boned me! the little ass hole! he got out of his car just crying because he hit a pregnant lady! well duh! you better be lucky that you didnt deploy my air bags!!! Then i call work and they were like well are you still coming in? uhhhhh NO im going to the hospital! i am 9 mths pregnant and just got into a car wreck! i got to the hospital and they were like ugh no if your pregnant and you get into a wreck you better come in. since the accident ive been having contractions every 20 mins and ive been feeling pushing pressure in my vagina area. i know that was a little tmi but there just isnt any other way to say it! haha. but they went ahead and sent me home they said honestly at 38 wks pregnant those were normal things to feel anyways and that if they get 10 mins apart to come back and that i could be in labor labor! And there is a full moon coming up so hopefully things will work out!

my baby child is on her way!!!

I can not wait to post pictures and see what she looks like myself!!! all i know is that im tired of working! and im tired of working with slackers and people work slow so that they dont have to do as much!

about 4 weeks to go!

Baby Allison is on her way! and im excited. ive been noticing way more contractions especially when i walk or stand a lot! so im taking that as a good sign. hopefully she will be here by the first week of october! because im tired. i never knew that being pregnant made so many things happen at once. and whoever said that pregnancy is always awesome and nice lied! haha i never got sick but i have had everything else. gestational diabetes, preeclampsia, nerve problems, puppps! and everthing else! if u can get it i have gotten it and a bladder infection! and idk how i got that. but i do love my little pookie and i cant wait to meet her. would i do it again. yes i would! atleast one more time but im not one of those crazy women who are convinced they are building gods army or they want like 6 or 7 kids sorry but yall are retarded! haha. i think the biggest complaint i have is my friggin crotch hurts all the time! if anyone has any suggestions on how to fix that or what causes that please let a sista know! other than that im ready to have this little beautiful bundle! and  im hoping that with every bit of pressure my butt feels that its getting closer because my poor feets are so swollen i cant even bend me toes!