Real friends...

Its funny how you can be friends with someone for so long! and they do nothing but hurt you... I mean if your working at a job and we have worked together for 4 years and you get transfered to another store then get fired and you LIE to me about WHY you got fired then im at my store saying how unfair it is of them to fire you when you did nothing wrong they were just discriminating against you because of health problems or something and the manager has to pull me aside and tell me that you were fired for STEALING! that hurts my feelings so bad! and you never ever ever say anything to disprove that! gosh... i today mourn a friendship with someone who i thought was not only a friend to me but also a family member! and someone who i could talk to. but i guess you know something is fishy about it when they dont even come to your wedding. you know.

And then when you try to be a good friend and be there for them through the death of their child and be there for them when all hell breaks loose in their family and they are crying and have no one else on their side you find out they are talking crap about you behind your back and hell i never said one ugly thing about you to anyone even after i find out all the bad stuff you say about me or lied to me about! because i said thats not important! i dont need to stoop to your level! Now i find out you and my old co workers are bash talking me behind my back but you guys still have the nerve to call me and ask how im doing how my baby is! how dare you act like you care about my child! or me! its not so much that i care to the point of its going to make me depressed and sad but it really hurts my feelings that ppl are that shallow! im a good friend and people always end up taking advantage of me! i would drive a hour out of my way to take someone home who i knew needed it and the next day they would be talking shit about me!

Just please if you are a friend be a friend. and dont make your co workers you real friends you need to be friends with people that you dont see everyday! because as soon as you get mad at each other your going to start talking shit to about each other to everyone else then when it comes back to that person feelings get hurt! i know i havent always been the best kind of friend to people but i always ended the friendship before it got to the point of just down right hurting your feelings because i was mad at you. so if your my "friend" and you think so little of me as to talk crap about me behind my back or about my baby or anything in my life when i have worked SO HARD to be where i am today please just forget me! just forget that im here just delete me from your life. because im tired of part time friends! im tired of people being my friend to benefit them! tired of ppl wanting free services out of me! tired of ppl wanting me to help them but never giving any help! so for all the people who know that they are sucky friends this one is for you guys out there in cyber world!!!

What does labor feel like?

Well today i have felt all kinds of sick! i felt like i had heartburn. i felt like i was gonna spew and then my stomach has been upset. Anyone who tells u pregnancy is a beautiful thing and u glow the whole time forgets to include the fact that u swell, gain a whole lot of weight, your shoe size goes up about 2 sizes on average, u get bladder and urinary tract infections, you get yeast infections, your nose spreads and gets bigger!, you eventually feel like a giant obese person in bed and cant roll over, you get hemroids (if they say they dont they r just prissy!), you get stretch marks in odd places that you thought would never spread like ur boobies! especially if you have small breasts or they are just not very round before hand.

other than that i love my baby and i am so glad to be having her and i will deff have another baby and go through this again but i just wanted to let any body who reads this know pregnancy is real rough and ugly! haha

but this whole labor thing is slow! ive been sitting on 1, 1.5cms for like a month! ugh then i go in on tuesday and i was still at that. then i go in today because i feel bad ta-da! im 3.5 cms dilated whoop! so she decides shes going to help my labor process and strip my membranes! let me tell u it doesnt hurt hurt but i sure wouldnt want someone to do it all the time! I had tears come out of my eyes i think she had her fingers so far in my cervix she could touch my babys nose! since then ive been having a whole lot of contractions and it feels like her heads trying to bust out of my vagina! just to put it bluntly. haha.

Please learn to drive...

Dont you hate when your driving down the road, following all the proper procedures and wham! Someone side swipes you! Well that happened to me today. A speed friendly college student who was driving his girlfriends old suv killed my new little car:( its mostly cosmetic to the side of the car but its the point of the matter! If you are turning right on red please make sure that someone isnt in the lane first! i mean he practically t-boned me! the little ass hole! he got out of his car just crying because he hit a pregnant lady! well duh! you better be lucky that you didnt deploy my air bags!!! Then i call work and they were like well are you still coming in? uhhhhh NO im going to the hospital! i am 9 mths pregnant and just got into a car wreck! i got to the hospital and they were like ugh no if your pregnant and you get into a wreck you better come in. since the accident ive been having contractions every 20 mins and ive been feeling pushing pressure in my vagina area. i know that was a little tmi but there just isnt any other way to say it! haha. but they went ahead and sent me home they said honestly at 38 wks pregnant those were normal things to feel anyways and that if they get 10 mins apart to come back and that i could be in labor labor! And there is a full moon coming up so hopefully things will work out!

my baby child is on her way!!!

I can not wait to post pictures and see what she looks like myself!!! all i know is that im tired of working! and im tired of working with slackers and people work slow so that they dont have to do as much!